Monday, March 28, 2016

No, I didn't hang up my blogging hat...

I'm pregnant!  Today I'm 14w and 2d, to be exact.  It's been a hell of a first trimester, so I haven't really been able to get off the couch, let alone eat something that's worth writing about.  There were a lot of weeks of cereal and baked potatoes.  I'm in my second trimester now, and for the most part, I'm feeling way better.  I'm currently having some pretty gnarly headaches, but I have a massage booked for later this week.

Getting pregnant again after our miscarriage was nerve wracking, but not as bad as I thought it would be.  We were lucky in that we got pregnant (again) on our first month of trying.  There have been many jokes in the house about Josh's virility.  We waited about three months after our miscarriage, and at the end of it, I was ready to try again.  I thought I would be more worried this time around, but after going through that, I feel like I had a better handle on what could happen.

The most nerve wracking day of the first trimester was our 8 week ultrasound.  That's where we found out in October that things had not progressed and we were losing the pregnancy.  I was a ball of anxiety all morning, in between running to the bathroom to vomit.  There was a lot of vomiting around that time.  Our ultrasound looked great, though, and we moved forward knowing things were going well.

Since then, I've been back once for my 12 week checkup, where everything looked good.  We're hoping things stay that way.

In the past few weeks, I've gone from not being able to keep anything down to regaining my love of being in the kitchen.  I actually grocery shopped and cooked all weekend, which is a welcome change from the last 3 months.  There were a few weeks there where I couldn't set foot in Kroger.  I also really missed blogging, but having the energy to write or cook just wasn't there.  There are definite plans to be more connected here in the future.  Things have changed quite a bit for me in the last 3 months, and I want to share.

So, if you'd wondered if I was gone for good, I'm not.  I'm not sure in what capacity this place will exist going forward, but it has always remained a positive outlet for me, and I don't plan to give that up.