Monday, November 9, 2015
Monday Musings: Quality Over Quantity
I spent some time in the woods this weekend really thinking about the direction I wanted to take Vanishing Veggie. Blogging has been so positive for me. It taught me how to look into what I was really thinking, and it has been a creative outlet for many years.
Lately, though, I have felt I'm not very good at it. Where before, I would spend weekends carefully photo editing and creating recipes, or going out and writing about new and exciting vegan events in Little Rock, lately I have been trying to pull together posts quickly so I'll have something to go up. I don't want it to be like that. When you come here, I want you to know that I took care to create something worth viewing.
Some of my apathy has to do with the simplicity of my meals lately, and the feeling that they're not worth sharing. While this has been great for my body, eating simple steamed veggies and beans, salads, quick and easy soups, it's not so hot for clicks and reposts. I can't simply strive for popularity on the internet. I just have to be me. Veganism is a central part of my lifestyle and will continue to be so, because I truly believe it is the best decision for me. After over 7 years of eating this way, I no longer feel the urgent need to promote vegan food. There is a movement, and I'm starting to see a lot of good change. There are so many incredible bloggers out there doing what I only wish I could, and they stand as a voice far louder than mine. I need to figure out what I bring to the table, what stories I can share, and what little space I can create online for people to enjoy.
My life is really developing in other areas as well, and that has been pulling me away from cooking and writing about it. My position at work has been taking off, and I find myself more immersed in architecture than I have been in years. I realize that to be truly great at my chosen career, which I do love deeply, I need to devote some of my non-work hours to studying, researching, and furthering my craft. I have been yearning to create more art pieces, be that painting, photography, or digital drawing. So, I hope to carve out some time for those creative endeavors as well. I've shared small glimpses of my art with you on this blog, and I'd like the chance to do more.
We are also very much looking forward to starting a family, something which I hope to write about and share here, although the level to which I am still struggling with. I want to maintain a certain level of privacy for our children, and I haven't begun to formulate my full opinion on that matter.
I feel like I'm pulling back on the blog just when things in my life seem to be the best that they've been. Sure, we just lost a pregnancy, but I am so deeply in love and happy with where things are in my life. I started this blog when I was completely lost and struggling with what I wanted, who I wanted to be, and how to cope with the deep loathing I had for myself. I feel like in a small way, writing here to you has brought me through that. With sobriety and caring for myself, I seem to want to grow and focus on more areas of my life, not just this blog.
So, all of this is to say that you may not see me regularly, but I will still be here. I want to use this as a platform for stories, struggles, and of course, food, but I want to choose quality of quantity. I'm not really sure what that will look like moving forward, and I'm going to need some time to figure that out. I plan on taking a small break, probably until the end of the year, to regroup and work on some content. In the meantime, you can still find me active in other places:
For dining reviews, read my Eat Arkansas articles.
For weird and wacky doodles, see my blog Scribbly Brain. I hope to re-launch this platform with a better format and new material at the beginning of the year as well.
For everyday eats and life pics, follow me on instagram.
I'll see you all in January, with new stories and pictures and musings on life. I hope you'll still be here when I get back.