Thursday, January 30, 2014

Arbonne Detox Day 25, Thoughts on Alcohol

 My thought of booze are ever changing.  In fact, my thoughts on most things are ever changing.  I used to proclaim loudly, "I could never give up meat!"  Then 6 years ago, I just decided to, then did just that.  I kind of feel the same way about alcohol at times.  "I could never stop drinking!"  Why is that, though?

I fluctuate between a moderate to heavy drinker most of the time.  It's part of my cultural upbringing, as one of the main activities I do with my family and friends is drink.  I don't think this is a bad thing, I just don't know how it's helping me progress in my life.  I do, however, see where it hurts me.  Alcohol is a huge factor in me making bad food choices.  Alcohol is a huge factor in wasted days due to hang overs.  Alcohol is a huge factor in workouts missed.  I'm very conflicted about this whole issue, and I guess that's why I'm writing, to try to work out some position on it.

As I continue to eat clean, I feel like my entire body is alive and awake.  It's hard for me to think about putting anything in it that will cause me to feel bad or mistreat myself.  Having a drink is as unappealing currently as eating a highly processed cookie.  Honestly, I think I'm scared to have a drink.  I think I am afraid that if I reintroduce alcohol back into my diet, then my unhealthy eating patterns will re-emerge, and 6 months from now I will still be unhappy, overweight and stuck.

I know this isn't the most rational fear, but I have years of stagnant progress to back it up.  I don't want to look back on my life and see that I spent most of it being unhappy with myself.  I want to be the most optimal person I can be, and I'm just not sure where alcohol fits into that equation.

I'm not saying I'm quitting drinking.  I'm saying... I'm conflicted.

It would be helpful to hear if any of you find a balance between letting go and living healthy.  I know this is a control issue for me.  I fear I will lose control of the healthy lifestyle that I currently have.  Control has always been an issue for me, as it manifested itself in such a nasty eating disorder in my earlier years.  As the end of my "detox" approaches, I'm at a bit of a crossroads, and I'm not sure what the best direction is.

All that said, let's focus on today.  Today was good.  I woke up feeling happy and lean, opening my eyes before my alarm.  It's always a good day if I can beat my alarm clock.  Waking up naturally just feel better.

Today, I added spinach to my morning chocolate/blueberry/chia smoothie, and it was great!  I picked up some unsweetened coconut milk to go in it, which balanced everything out.  The first picture is from last night, when I made up my smoothies to take to work.  The nutribullet really is so simple.

I have taken more "selfies" on this detox than ever before.  I guess I just feel confident and happy in the mornings, and there's nothing wrong with that.  Also, my skin has been great since I stopped drinking so much booze.

I had some Arbonne tea as a mid-morning drink.  It's pretty cold here still, so it was nice to have something warm to hold in my hand.  I brewed this extra strong, and it was great.  Lunch was a smoothie like yesterday, light green and lovely.

Man, I forgot to put this digestion plus in my smoothie today, so I drank it in some water.  Oh geez, that was a horrible idea.  These do not taste good.  Bleck.

Josh and I ran 3 miles after work, and I continued to mull the alcohol question over in my head.  Running really does allow my brain to wander, much like a really good yoga class.  It helps me work out things that I'm struggling with.  I thought, maybe I should extend the no-drink for another couple months.  We'll see.  As I said, my opinion is ever changing.  All I know is that I should keep eating healthy, and tonight's dinner did that!

Curry Zucchini Salad


1 zucchini, sliced thin
1 tsp olive oil
1 tsp dried dill
1 tsp curry powder
fresh pepper

For the salad (any will do!)
chopped romaine
chopped carrots
raw pumpkin seeds
dress with lemon juice

a big dollop of hummus
1/2 cup cooked quinoa

  • Heat olive oil in a pan on medium/high heat.
  • Add in the zucchini and let saute for 5 minutes.
  • Add spices.
  • Cook another 5 minutes.  Determine your preferred level of softness in the zucchini.  I like mine still pretty crunchy. 
  • Assemble!  Big scoop of salad, big dollop of hummus, quinoa, then zucchini over the quinoa.
  • I ended up mixing it all up as I ate it.  Yum!

We're grilling with E+P tomorrow, so look forward to some fun pictures and food from that.  Until then, here's more of my salad.  It really was super yummy.  I can't believe how heavy handed with salt I used to be.  I haven't used it in cooking OR missed it!

I'd love to hear your thought on alcohol.  Fine in moderation or major hindrance for weight loss?  

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Arbonne Detox Day 24, Simple Almond Powerhouse

I have just realized what a horrible job I've been doing posting the correct days.  I've had to re-edit the post titles twice.  Sorry about that, but don't worry, we only have 4 days of the detox left.  After that, the post titles will go back to their random, food focused ramblings.

I'm drawing to the close of my "detox," but it's impossible to think of it like that.  It truly is a better way of eating and living.  They say it takes 3 weeks to make or break a habit, and I feel that this lifestyle has set in, and I'm feeling great.

Breakfast was great, too.  I've been talking to a lot of people on the detox, and the general consensus on the protein powder favors the vanilla flavor.  I would have to not agree with that.  The chocolate is amazing.  I mixed blueberries, almond milk, chocolate protein and chia today, like usual, and it was so yummy.  Spinach needs to start making an appearance in my breakfast AND lunch shakes.  Why not?

Another new smoothie!  This time, a weird light green color!  It was a little over-blended, which made it really frothy.

Simple Almond Powerhouse

2 scoops vegan protein powder
1 huge tbs almond butter
2 tbs blueberries
2 cups mixed greens

I loved this mix.  So delicious!  I keep thinking I need to mix up my snackage, but if it's not broken, I'm not sure I need to mess with it.  Raw almonds in the afternoon are a perfect part of my day, and they make such a great snack.

No workout tonight.  I had just enough time when I got home to wolf down some Moroccan chili with Josh and head over to my sister's house.  Casey is launching her Arbonne Consultant Business, so if you're interested in any of the products I've been loving these past few weeks, you can contact her here.  I don't plan on pushing the Arbonne  products on this blog, because I want this to continue to be an honest space where I relay to you the steps I'm taking on my path to health, but I never want you to feel like there is an agenda.  I really didn't know much about these products before I started the detox, and I do like them a lot.  Mostly, they have helped me take control and regain a grasp on my health.  I got a lot of confidence back, and I plan on using that confidence to guide me into making good choices for myself.

Casey had some yummy snackage at the party, so I had some of that, too.  Now I'm off to prep my smoothies for tomorrow, and get some much needed sleep!

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Arbonne Detox Day 23, Hummus and Sweet Potato Lettuce Wraps

Have you ever reached into the fridge, put a few things together, popped them in your mouth and thought, "OMG! That's good!"  That happened to me today.  When I got home from work, I was starving, and I needed just a little snack to fuel me through my run.  I saw the live lettuce, the home made hummus, and some roasted sweet potato slice.  Instant snack!  Holy crap, it was good!

I'm really not sure why I was sooo hungry when I got home.  I ate what I've been normally eating on this detox.  Same as yesterday.

Maybe coloring burns more calories?  hehe

I love being able to hand draw things at work.  I'm trying to figure out a color strategy for an elementary auditorium.  It's fun.  I wish most of my day was taken up with coloring.

After work, Josh and I did something that we have never, ever done together.  We went to the gym!  I'm not sure if Josh has ever been to one, as he prefers to work out outside.  It was awesome.  Having a partner that will work out with you, I think, is a really good thing.  It's not something we've always had, but it's something that we've had on and off throughout our 8 years together.  I think we're happiest when we're being active.  Camping and hiking have always been hobbies we enjoy together, and now running is becoming an activity we both really enjoy.

I happily did 3 miles while watching Biggest Loser, which as semi-trashy tv as it might be, I love.  I know there is a lot of controversy around the show, and the product placement is horrid, but I think it motivates people.

When we got home, we stretched and I made a super healthy dinner!  I've been thinking about a big salad all day.  I've been seeing beautiful bowls of veggies all over the blog-o-sphere, all with a big dollop of hummus in the center.  So, that's what I did.

The salad underneath was super simple, but it hit the spot.

Romaine lettuce
sliced cucumber
sliced carrot
sliced basil (very thin)
chopped celery
raw pumpkin seeds

I steamed some broccoli in lemon juice and cooked up a batch of quinoa, then I put it all together.  The hummus is from this weekend, and it was great.

Do you have any trashy shoes you like to watch at the gym?  Do you work out with your partner?